Okay then.
I took an empathy quotient test.
I lack empathy. In fact I’ve got a very low empathetic emulation.
there’s an empathy test?
Yes. Goes right alongside the Autism Quotient test (which stated I had aspergers).
Do you do these tests with a doctor or psycologist?
No. I really took them on a whim.
I don’t think im ever going to see a psychologist on the matter.
I think my parents are convinced it’s because I was never given social interaction.
Yeah, don’t go around saying you have a disorder or disease just because you self diagnosed yourself. You didn’t go to 8 years of college, did you?
If you think you have a problem, talk to a doctor, consuler, or psyciatrist.
I said I suspect I have it.
Not actually have it.
That’s the problem. There’s no way for me to get to one. And even if I was able to, my parents would tell me no.
And the reason I think is because they want to avoid the psychiatrists. They think they’ll give them a psychotropic drug for me to take.
And those mask the problem. They don’t solve it.
My dad often says this, “look. Even If you do have it, they’re going to give you two options. They’re either going to tell you to train yourself. Or take this pill AND train yourself.”
Needless to say they either think Im acting this way cause I had little social interaction (which is true. Considering if only been in public school for 5 years. And haven’t been in church as much either) or because they want to see if I can be trained out of my quirks without knowing the cause.
I personally am not sure of the motive. Those are my theories.
But it’s muddled.
And I hate myself for writing it.
Because now I sound like a brat. 
Honestly, it’s something you really have to look into. If you’re really concerned about it, your parents need to as their parental duty.
I didn’t want to go to a psyciatrist at first. And they really do help your problems. It’s more than just giving you pills.
And you don’t even have to go to a psyciatrist. Go talk to a counsuler. They can’t prescribe you medicine, but are still knowledgeble and listen to your problems. I did both.
I’m not sure the reason.
I personally believe they hate psychiatrists. Maybe because my grandma has been seeing one and she’s miserable.
Oh well.
I think I’ll drop it. When I’m an adult (which isn’t too far off) and on my own I’ll go see a psychiatrist on the matter myself.
And I don’t have a counselor.
What I can do to push the issue without making it obvious is refutable.
I can only hope that mom suspects again. If she does, I’ll tell her to do it.
Wouldn’t it be better just having a chat with a doctor or someone at school (if your still at school)?
I’ve been thinking of doing that myself. You don’t have to go and request a counsellor or physcaratrist.
I can’t tell a doctor. I’d have my mom there.
But I am thinking of telling a couple of friends of mine from school that actually the condition.
Yeah, if your friends have been diagnosed, then they can give you advice on what to do I guess.
Right. I just need to remember to call them tomorrow.
I’ve been trying to get ahold of one but he hasn’t called back.
Good luck anyways 
Thanks.
sigh
I often worry if I’m just driving myself crazy.
Hey, don’t worry about it. Your not driving yourself crazy, you have genuine concerns and thats natural. If people aren’t understanding about that well, then they’re just narrowminded idiots 
Yeah I know.
But I feel like I may just be over supecting things. That mom and dad are right that I’m acting the way I am because of little social interaction and that Because of the little quirks i have I’m assuming it’s aspergers.
This. If they don’t want to answer your doubts, you can do it by yourself. You’ll soon be old enough to not need any permission on a test.
I’m very sorry, S330. I wish your parents were more supportive and accepting.