Reason: Bombed the test again. I brought it up by 20 points, but it still wasn’t over the 50 mark, which would have given me an automatic “ok” into the school because they won’t recognize my diploma, and I don’t have a GED. I can’t even describe how put out I was - and still am. I feel like such a failure, or I’m not as smart as everyone thinks I am, and it’s the worst feeling ever. Seriously. I KNOW I’m not stupid!!! And I went in so confident, too; I was positive I knew my stuff, and that I’d bump the grade up, so to get that score back was literally like getting slapped in the face.
They’re all telling me that getting a GED would be perfectly fine, and does nothing bad to my records - the dean of the college even sat down with me and explained it all to me, and told me himself he would have rather seen a GED with my diploma; I would have gotten in without a problem. When I went home and told Mom that I basically need to get a GED or I don’t get in, she got all mad and objective to it. I’m pretty sure she thinks GEDs are only for high school drop-outs, and if I had a GED it’d make me look like a drop-out - but the dean told me since I have the homeschooling records and diploma, the GED wouldn’t make it look like that. It’d basically just back up what I already have, but I can’t get that through her head.
If I want to get into the college without having to jump through any more hoops, I’ll have to get the GED, which I’m willing to do - but Mom is the one making me jump through these hoops because she thinks the GED is a bad thing. I’m so torn! It’s going to help me get into THIS college, which I’ll transfer from in several years, anyway. By then, the next college I go to is going to look at all my college transcripts, and my high school diploma or GED or whatever isn’t even really going to matter by then.
God, I’m so frustrated. I can’t even think or get anything done, because I’ve got this weighing heavy on my mind and I feel like if I don’t do anything NOW, then I’m not going to get in.
Reason:Because I just got thru watching Derek Anderson’s “It’s Not Funny!!!” Tirade on Youtube… But if my team was getting beat like that I’d be laughing too…
Reason: I had a good piano lesson today. My teacher sent me home with a whole buttload of work for this week, though.
She’s also been trying to prepare me for college, so I’m gonna be working on some Preludes by Beethoven. It’s gonna be a busy week!
I’m glad things are doing better, Leirin. It’s always better when you have someone there to pick you back up.
Reason: Because I was up late watching TV…I shouldn’t complain because I have to be at school at 12 and my siblings have to be at school at 8 ( ). But nonetheless, I’m tired.
Reason: We’ve got the living room decorated for Christmas, and I’ve done a large amount of the work in my room, shall finish it after my second driving lesson, which is today ^^
Reason/s: My driving lesson went okay…, but when I got back my mother put me in the worst mood I’ve been in for a long time I was gonna finish decorating my room today, but now I can’t be bothered, at all.
Reason: School. Is. INSANITY. I’ve been doing homework nonstop since the “break” (where I pretty much did homework the whole time). I got home yesterday at 3:45. And I didn’t stop working until 9:15, with a fifteen minute stop for dinner. I’m exhausted, stressed, and I wonder why I’m in all these stupid classes. Why AP English in freshmen year? WHY? I just haven’t been here in a while and I wanted to tell everybody that I’m alive! And even though I haven’t been around much I’ve been thinking about you all!
). But nonetheless, I’m tired.
I was gonna finish decorating my room today, but now I can’t be bothered, 
hahaha I feel your pain 