Mood: Happy,
Reason: Because we might get Kinect. 
Current Mood: Tired And Annoyed
I wanted to watch The Return of the King tonight to end my vacation in a bang since tomorrow is my last day of Winter Break, but I’m too tired to watch a 3 hour movie. Oh well. 
Though, I still could end it in a bang. I could try to play Far Cry 3 all day tomorrow and beat it, that would be excellent. 
I don’t even know why since it has nothing to do with me but something happened to a friend and it’s a good thing (I guess) yet it’s making me feel like vomiting and I feel horrible about that. It’s even worse because I can’t adequately explain it and I feel like a giant diaper baby for letting it make me feel bad 
Mood: Tired.
Reason: There is no reason.
Mood: Angry 
Reason: Classified.
Current Mood: Excited, Happy, and Worried.
I went to a non-zipcode highschool near me called Community High School cause my English teacher recommended it to me. I love film, literature, photography, and writing stories and that high school has classes just for that. I’m really trying to do better in school and I think I’m on right track expect for Math, I ALWAYS struggle in math, and that high school seems perfect for me. The only problem is its selected by lottery. Over 300 students try to get in every year, and only 101 get selected, so I might not get in, and I really want to. If I don’t get in I’m gonna be upset. Apparently if your lottery number is low you have a good chance of getting it but if its high you have a low chance of getting it, and I don’t know mine yet. I hope I get in!
Mood: Anxious.
Reason: Brothers sick, it’s nighttime, Bookwork to be done, tired, meating old friends in a week, the list goes on.
Mood: Worse off than yesterday, but looking forward to tomorrow and the weekend.
Mood: Ehh… Mixed?
Reason: Prepare for a wall of text!
I’m going through a lot of… let’s say difficult life problems at the moment. School just gets harder and harder to cope with each and every day. I have some dedicated friends but I still find it difficult to cope. I’m trying to forget about it because I know that if I think too much I’ll just lose my mind. People can be so mean.
I recently lost a friend to suicide. I feel awful. I know it’s not my fault but I feel so guilty. I feel like I could’ve or should’ve done something. Like it didn’t have to happen.
I found out I will be performing at the whole school talent show singing a song I wrote on piano. Excited but nervous. As a young singer-songwriter, this is something I’ve wanted to do for so long now. Finally I’m getting the opportunity. The problem is that because of other problems in my life, I can’t focus. I really don’t want to screw this up.
Sorry if I got kind of heavy with you guys. I just feel this forum is a good emotional outlet, so I will continue to post as often as possible. Thanks for taking the time to read this message. I appreciate it.
Flame of Awesomeness: First off, I’m truly sorry to hear about your friend’s death. It is often not only the suicide-taker who suffers, but his/her family and friends too. It is also normal for them to feel guilty or responsible for the death. I advise you talk to a family member, friend or school counsellor to come to terms with your friend’s departure. It’s also okay to cry, to remember the good times you shared, and how that person was special to you. It’s also okay to be angry, or try to rationalise why this had to happen. Just know that you are not alone - the fact that you say you have dedicated friends means that you all are probably going through the same thing. Take comfort in the fact that while time may not heal all wounds, it certainly makes them less painful.
Regarding people being mean, the Internet has a saying for this: Haters gonna hate. Unless you feel they have a valid reason for being nasty to you (like perhaps you’ve said something insensitive to them without realising), just ignore the haters. Hang out with your friends, the ones who make you happy. Sooner or later, the bullies will get bored. Even if they don’t, your pals will be there to help defend you.
I, myself, have been bullied in high school. I had a group of chums whom I would hang out in the library and in the mess (I was in an army cadet corps) and their company made life more bearable. When I was in university, a person whom I thought was my friend posted hurftul comments about me on Facebook. This was on no fault of my own, we worked on a project that didn’t get fantastic grades and although I and everyone else pulled their weight, she needed someone to blame, and she took it out on all of us. My friends stood up for me against her, and I will never forget their loyalty and courage. If you know someone who needs a buddy, be that buddy to him/her. He/she will never forget it.
Lastly, good luck for your talent show. You have all the skills you’ll ever need. If you don’t make it, take comfort in the fact that you tried your best. That’s all that matters. Of course, if you didn’t try your best, then you should… I dunno, try harder? 
Current Mood: Kinda okay
I got my salary letter! It stated my wage increment and year-end bonus!
But I got a performance review and goal-setting with my supervisor at the end of this week!
Back four years ago, I had also lost a friend to suicide. I knew he was troubled and he did threaten suicide many a time before. One of my sisters an I had tried everything to minister to him to prevent him from doing so…but one day, a week before halloween, he brought a gun to school and shot himself in the mens bathroom.
I can tell you that four years later, the only thing that i am probably more remorseful for was not realizing what had happened sooner.
I did everything I could to stop his suicide…but I have no control over the minds of men.
Edited by TDIT for description of suicide aftermath. Please be aware that we have younger members on the forum.
Thanks to everyone for their kind words. It makes me feel a lot better knowing that people have gone through the same things I have to go through, and they’ve come out on top. To be honest, the thing that bothered me most about my friend`s suicide is that I had no idea he was in so much pain. I had no idea he even entertained thoughts like that. It’s going to take a while to get over it, but I do believe he’s in a happier place now. Maybe I’m just deluded, but it’s what I believe.
I’m horribly sorry to hear this. 
I hope it won’t be too hard on you or for their other friends and family.
Feeling horrible because my mom is going to talk with a counselor about my depression tomorrow and I feel guilty
I don’t think I should ever have told them about it, but now it’s my fault.
I’m full of hope and my mood is somewhere between happiness and sadness …
Oh that is not good.
Leirin: While I don’t know how it feels like to be in your shoes, all I can say is that if you need help, don’t be shy or afraid to ask for it. I hope that your days ahead will be better, and hopefully you’ll be taking a step in the right direction! 
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Feeling relieved at the mo’. Just survived counselling with my supervisor last week, a Media Watch article this week, buying presents and cards for a colleague’s birthday today, and dropping off my job description from HR at the immigration centre. Now I’ve only got to get through tomorrow and the weekend will be open to me to get some fanwork and videogaming done!
Current Mood: Mad
Grand Theft Auto V has been delayed from May to September 
Current Mood: Happy
My review for Bravest Warriors has been postponed to next week. So I have nothing to work on this weekend - and I’m thinking of visiting a new library in Chinatown and completing a Pixar-related fan project before the FYC period ends.
Also reading the amazing Prince Of Thieves novel by Chuck Hogan about a gang of Boston bank robbers being hunted by an FBI agent. If that sounds familiar, it’s because it was adapted into Ben Affleck’s sophomore directorial debut, The Town, which is also one of my favourite movies.