Single, never been on a date/in a relationship at all. xD;
I’m so wary of dating somebody I meet online, too. It’s so easy to hide flaws when you have all the time in the world to think about what you say next. I mean, heck, I try and be myself and sometimes I wonder if I’m too open, but there are still insecurities I have that don’t show whether I mean for that or not, you know? I admit, I’m both scared of meeting somebody and being disappointing and ending up disappointing somebody else, you know? At the same time, I almost wonder if there’s anybody geeky enough to meet offline.
I guess I’m kinda insecure and guarded. I’m somebody who is afraid of failure. I take romantic relationships very seriously. I consider them Godly unions. I can’t stand how easily the word “Love” is used, because I consider true love something eternal. People feel so rushed to say they love somebody because so many people are offended by somebody simply really liking them. I mean, I had a person I barely knew be all “I LOVE YOU!” and when I turned them down, they were like “oh, okay then, that’s cool. I wasn’t that serious anyway. Let’s be friends! ” I was just… just what the heck? And on DA, I feel like I’m surrounded by preteens who are “TTLY IN LUV GUYZ” and all this dumb high school drama builds up. I never understood the drama of break ups. Yeah, they can be sad, but either it’s not meant to be or will work out in the end IMO.
Plus… I guess a part of me wonders if I’m likable by somebody who isn’t either confused or a teenager who thinks they’re in love every 5 seconds. ^^;
…WOOOOW that turned into a rant. I’m sorry. xD;
Anyways, that said, I don’t think internet relationships never work or anything. Glad you guys are happy. ^^
Netbug: I totally see where you’re coming from, though. I was actually starting to question myself when I started having feelings for mo, cuz in case you guys didn’t know, I just get so fed up with people saying “we’re in love we’re in love kadjfkas kisskisskiss” and then break up two weeks later. I didn’t want to be that way, at all. The last thing in the world I ever wanted to do was break his heart, cuz he’s such a sweet, innocent guy. Relationships nowadays have been severely cheapened, and like you said, people don’t see “love” as a commitment and a God-given union. (Thanks for taking all the words outta my mouth, foo. xDD)
And I never understood “middle school/high school” drama, either. People make a bigger deal out of things than need be, as far as I’m concerned.
The only reason I got together with mo is number one, nothing could have been more God-ordained; I mean, everything just like, lined up perfectly in a matter of weeks and it was as I had been praying for God to just clear things up for me as far as “my guy” went. Number two, I wasn’t just going to enter this relationship because “omg he likes me too! ”… I was serious about this. I have never felt this deeply for anyone before in my life, and I’ve never had anyone in my life love me for who I am and what I believe before. (Most of the time, my belief system gets completely torn down, and that’s rather discouraging. ) I keep praying for God to help me out with the relationship, because it is very hard not being together physically, but I think working to my advantage because I know that I might go a bit overboard if I were allowed to be with him all the time IRL. xDD
I really hope that you find your special WALL•E one of these days, I can’t imagine living my entire life without someone to love.
This is the best thing you’ve said on here concerning your relationship with mo. I believe that God could have planned that you meet your “special someone” on this site; God is sovereign over all, even over moments like this.
I pray that God may be with you as he guides you through this relationship. I will also be praying that you two will trust in God to help you make the right decisions as you enjoy such a special and wonderful relationship together.
LCE: Oh, I hope you don’t think I didn’t mean to be specifically referring to you guys of anything with my rant. ^^; I’m sorry if I came across rude or like I was implying I didn’t approve of you guys. I’m just ranty about this topic. xD;
JSWC: Aww, thanks so much! Any prayers are greatly appreciated!! hugs
Netbug: Nono, I didn’t think you were coming off as rude or anything, or that you were specifically talking about us. I know exactly how you feel and have felt the same way my entire teenage life about this subject (and even though mo and I are “dating”, I still feel the same way!). No worries! I share the same thoughts.
Interesting little comment: I haven’t told anyone outside the internet about me and mo’s relationship, besides my sister (and she’s like crazy close to me anyway ), but she has told one of our good friends who was going through a really tough time relationship-wise.
Anyhow, I was driving her home last night after she spent the night at our house, and we happened to get on the subject of relationships. I listened to what she was going through and gave her lots of advice and stuff, then started explaining about mo and how we met and stuff, and the sheer coincidences, and how I wanted our relationship to set an example for other couples our age and stuff… and after I got done talking, she looked at me and said, “I love how you’re just so chill about this… you’re like, in a relationship and yet you’re just going along with your life. And, it’s just so… cool.”
She said a few more things about our relationship, and how she was just amazed at how we were holding it all up even though we were so far apart, and the standards we had set for it and stuff.
Uuum, all the guys either think I’m gay, retarded(literally, they think I’m slow b/c I don’t get jokes due to 5-year’s homeschooling and me having MANNERS) or just don’t like that I actually wear this thing called clothing. So yeah, I love The Incredibles, I choose not to fight back when someone brutally insults me, and I don’t dress like a hooker, therefore I’m unnatractive. Iv’e had 2 boyfriends in the past, but I left one for his smoking and watching porn (he was 11 at the time, BTW), and the second said he wasn’t ready, which I totally understand. I don’t really care one way or the other, with or w/o a beau. I guess I don’t deserve one, and if the Lord wishes for me to be alone, I’m cool with that.
red and mo - I just read your entire story on how you guys met. It’s very sweet and touching, and I hope that everything works out for both of you!
IncredigirlVirginia - Who cares what they think? I was homeschooled myself – for over ten years, in fact – and some people think that I’m weird for not knowing certain things (most of which are trivial, such as various pop culture references and the like). I also refuse to dress in a revealing fashion, and I try to be mature and amiable around people. I try not to let what people say about me affect me. The point is that you’re a very special person, no matter what anyone may say.
Regarding myself and saying that I would never ever fall for a guy, I’ve since had to eat those words… facepalm
Aw, thank you Mitch We’re both still really enjoying the whole relationship thing. I know that red will really appreciate you wishing us luck in our relationship It just goes to show that you really don’t know how you’ll eventually fall in love <3
I’ve had one girlfriend in my life, but now she’s dating someone I strongly dislike, but I’m over. It might be a long time till I get another girlfriend. Oh well
” I was just… just what the heck? And on DA, I feel like I’m surrounded by preteens who are “TTLY IN LUV GUYZ” and all this dumb high school drama builds up. I never understood the drama of break ups. Yeah, they can be sad, but either it’s not meant to be or will work out in the end IMO.
Relationships nowadays have been severely cheapened, and like you said, people don’t see “love” as a commitment and a God-given union. (Thanks for taking all the words outta my mouth, foo. xDD)
Any prayers are greatly appreciated!! hugs
