Good advice there TDIT! But yeah, ellie-jessie-eve, I feel really scared for you. Not being able to control things like that must feel daunting
I hope you can find a way out of this. Just keep thinking about your friends and know they’re there for you. If anyone called me the Definition of a Best Friend I’d be feeling very flattered!
Mood: Bored…
Reason: Hmmmmm how can I put it? There’s just nothing to do, except daydream about Gar- I mean, think about what awesome friends I have here
Aw, ellie-jessie-eve, I hope you make it through this bad time your having! and don’t worry, as far as I’m concerned, here on PP your certainly not a freak, your one of our greatest members! If you ever have any other problems like that, don’t feel afraid to tell us about it if you need to! 
<3
Best friends are the best, aren’t they? It seems like that came for you at the perfect time! 
Awww, that sounds like my little sister… my mom has epilepsy, so when she has seizures my sister will get pillows and blankets or whatever she needs, and always takes care of her. <3 (my mom doesn’t have the convulsion/shaking kind of seizures, her muscles normally tighten up instead. There’s proper terminology for all this stuff, I’m just not as familiar with it as my mom is).
Thanks, TDIT! I think my biggest problem before was that I thought I would drown, but I’m getting past that now. 
haha… right. 
Mood: I feel like I’ve been hit by a moving semi truck. 
Reason: I stayed up until 12:30 last night, and then I woke up at 7:00 this morning to get my brother ready for a doctor’s appointment… I’m not really mentally tired, but my entire body aches awfully.
I’m really sorry to hear what you’ve been going through, ellie-jessie-eve. It’s great that you’ve got such a supportive and kind friend by your side, and with her help I hope you manage to go through your first day back at college well. It sounds like you get anxiety really bad, and I’m with thedriveintheatre on this, the meds should be a supplement rather than the sole thing that’s controlling this. You do exactly the same thing that I do when I get anxious, your anxiety causes pains that make you even more anxious, and then even when you consciously know that you’re okay and that the idea of breathing food into your lungs isn’t true, you still get anxious about it. I used to think I had brain cancer, but obviously I don’t, but the anxiety about it would cause a headache which would make me think about it even more…It’s a vicious circle.
I find a few things help me to get out of that vicious circle, so they might work for you too. There’s some stuff called Rescue Remedy (it might be different in the States, but I’m sure there’s a similar product) and it smells lovely, of lavender. It hasn’t got any chemicals in it, as it’s all natural, and you pop a few drops on your tongue and let the anxiety wash away. I’m not sure exactly how it works (I think it’s part physical and part psychological) but I find it works well.
Plus watching a movie, reading a book, chatting with friends or family just as you did, all of that helps a lot. Anything to take your mind off it. Hang in there, and just keep swimming! hug
I’d comment on what everyone’s been going through, and give support to those who need it, but honestly I’m so tired that I find it’s my duty to at least pop in and let you guys know I’m not dead.
For those of you who didn’t know, I went on “vacation” to my aunt and uncle’s for the weekend and just got back today. I had a blast, but I can honestly describe my mood at the moment as tired and feeling awful.
Between a bad night’s sleep, an early morning, being rushed out the door by my grandmother who can’t chill out, starting the most wonderful time of the month (girls, yanno what I’m saying), and a long, exhausting drive home, I feel horrendous. At the same time, I’m pretty sure that greasy double cheeseburger from Burger King isn’t agreeing with me so much, and I feel bloated and often like I’m going to be sick. To make things worse, I feel emotionally crummy as well, and everything’s making me wanna cry. I hate it. It’s stupid when I feel this way, but I have to remind myself it’s all hormonal.
I really should lie down, but the baby’s here and I need to take him out of my mom’s hands when he wakes up, so I have to will myself to fight how I feel until about 4:30. 
Ugh.
little chef
Ugh, that sound awful, little chef. Hope you feel better soon!
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Mood: Bored…
Reason: Hmmmmm how can I put it? There’s just nothing to do, except daydream about Gar- I mean, think about what awesome friends I have here [/quote:27ek4r8q]
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Aww, that’s awful ellie-jessie-eve, sorry about your panic attacks. I have an anxiety disorder too, and I know it’s very hard to live with. I search google for anxiety cures (most of it is just programs people beg you to buy though ) and I sometimes find an occasional tip for helping anxiety. One site I found is pretty good, anxietycoach.com/index.html it has some info on anxiety and a few things you can do to help it. (The link is for the main page, the juicy stuff is to the side. And I know it kinda wants you to buy their stuff, but it has some helpful tips, I wasn’t sure which pages I should give a link to.) And I’m sorry if this might be stuff you already know.
I’ll be praying for you, EJE.
And I hope you feel better too, little_chef_eva09
Hope you et feeling better, little_chef! 
Mood: Pretty awesome, just bored.
Well, I’m bored enough that I’m listening to YGAFIM in Japanese. It’s pretty awesome, though.
Mood: Estatic!
Reason: Not only do I have the most gorgeous boyfriend on PP, but I might be seeing Toy Story 3 on Wednesday!!! Finally! I’m so hyped, especially when I was on such a downer earlier.
Im glad for you ami!!! <3
That’s so awesome, Ami! Hope you have an awesome time Wednesday! I need to see it again…
That’s great, Ami!
that sounds…fun. You will love TS3!!! Good to hear that your …relationship worked out
Snipe- Thehe… That’s okay. I have brain farts, too <img src=“{SMILIES_PATH}/grinandwink.gif” alt=“;-D” title="Grin and
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ellie-jessie-eve- Thanks! Yeah, it is cool !
ellie-jessie-eve- Wow. That sucks lemons and limes… I can’t imagine what that must be like. But you’re not a freak. When someone gets a cold or is otherwise sick, they’re not freaks. People who have Anorexia aren’t freaks. So you’re not. Just find something that relaxes you, try do distract yourself, and go on the meds if you have to (Though I see why you wouldn’t wanna be on them. I hate taking pills, too). Whatever you have to do to keep yourself calm. I have a mild OCD (not sure if it’s truly clinical or not, but I hope not), so, yeah, those things are irritating. But you can overcome it. And, if it helps, I think you’re really cool . God Bless you. I hope collage goes great for you! Congrats on getting in! Enjoy it ! (And that’s good that you have such a good friend . Everyone needs one of those!)
thedriveintheatre- They are ! Hope you can get yours one day!
I want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart for your support. It means a lot!
thedriveintheater: You’re right about me getting proper treatment. Tommorrow I’m scheduling an appointment with my psychiatrist, so I can talk to a professional about my issue. And I am glad that my family is supportive of me in this.
Ami: I love being in control, so I hate it when my body doesn’t do what I want!!
Snipe: Aw, thanks for saying I’m one of the greatest members here, even though I’ll have to disagree with you on that! I’m not that cool ( <not me )
I’m sorry to hear about your mother, but It’s great that your sister takes good care of her. Anywho, Thank you for the kind words
lizardgirl: Your description of the brain tumor/anxiety attack is exactly what its like for me. I’m good knowing I’m not the only one who has dealt with this before, it makes me know that I can over come this too. Rescue Remedy sounds great, I will have to figure out if they sell them here. “Just Keep Swimming” Yes, amazing reference!
skunklover: I’m going to look into that link right now, it looks like it’s full of important information! Thank you so much, it means a lot. and as I said to lizardigirl, it’s nice to know I’m not the only one, and that others can live with anxiety!
little_chef_eva09: Ugh, I hate days like that! I hope by the time you read this post that you feel all better!
Ami & Mopar5 (or if you were celebrities Amipar5): As I’ve said on another thread, CONGRATS! <3
Violet Parr: Thank you so much! And as for college…Ha, I didn’t “get in” I go to a Junior College, so EVERYONE gets accepted! I could of went to a University, but I don’t know for sure what I’ll major in, and I want to live at home for a while. (until I have $$$ to move out). But my JC is considred to be one of the best in the nation
Mood: Better
Reason: I didn’t have an attack today! I still have a lot of pain in my chest because I’m nervous, but it hasn’t turned into an attack all day. I think being at school distracted me from worrying. Drinking tea has really helped!
Plus it was my first day at college! I love my campus. I ride the bus out of town to get to college, and my really good friend was on it with me. Also two of my friends from FFA (Future Farmers of America) in High School were in my first class: Agriculture Leadership, which is basically a club (Agriculture Ambassadors) who represent the Agriculture Department and help at Agriculture, 4-H, and FFA events in the county. I also had English.
I LOVE college. So much better than high school. I love being treated as an adult, stuyding what I want, sleeping in, and I love the more relaxed environment. The only thing I miss about high school is FFA and Culinary Arts. I also love being able to wear red and blue, I haven’t worn red and blue to school for years!
I even saw a student with a WALL-E backpack!
Tommorrow I have a 3 hour long drawing course and Math (<lame!)
^ I’m glad you’re doing better, ellie-jessie-eve!
Mood: Very, very, very excited!!! 
Reason: I’m finally going to get to see Toy Story 3 today! yippeeee!!!
^ lucky snipe! lol
Thanks Snipe, and that’s so exciting that you get to see Toy Story 3 today, have a great time!
Current Mood: Okay
I was supposed to see Toy Story 3 again today. But since a family member is in the hospital, my mom is using the money for that. At first I was angry, but then I realize that seeing a family member in the hospital is more important. As anybody hear about the 6 firefighters that got crushed when a wall fell on top of them? My uncle was one of them.
PS: My mom said to make up for it, she’ll let me buy the Lost game on Friday!