lizardgirl: I totally see where you’re coming from, and I’m most certainly thankful that my family is still together after these four years, because my parents could have very well divorced under all the pressure, but they stayed strong; and as a result, we as a family have, overall, stayed strong. However it’s hard for me to be the eldest child, as I feel like I’m carrying a good portion of the stress that my parents do so that my younger siblings can feel like they don’t have to worry as much… and the truth is, they don’t worry too much, and I don’t understand why I can’t feel more like them. I feel like if I don’t carry some of the burden, my parents will think none of us care.
And I know Christmas isn’t about presents, and presents don’t matter in the long run - what upsets me is that people have seen us crawling through this financial lack for four straight, unrelenting years, and yet Christmas comes around, we have absolutely no money… and not one of our church friends or family members (most of them don’t have money to spare either) even remotely offer to help out on Christmas. Even if it were something simple, like money for new clothes, or a Christmas meal, or just someone wanting to come and spend Christmas Eve with my family… any little thing like that. No - instead, we’re nice to everyone, and everyone around us is getting blessed by the second, and they offer us what? Nothing.
I’m not running around begging for anything, don’t get me wrong; and I’m not sulking in self-pity either, I just don’t understand the thinking behind this!! 
Oh, I’ve actually got a job application sitting on my desk, but I haven’t researched on how to write up a proper resume so I can’t turn it in until that’s finished. (I’m not going to have much on it, anyway, as I’ve never held a job before or anything like that.) Hopefully I’ll be able to get the job, and somehow work out the issue of transportation at the same time…
I know none of you can help out besides giving me the reassurance of your support, but that can only do so much, you know? I love that I have so many people who care, but not one can do anything to change the situation we’re in. I think what got me down the most is that one person on deviantART who totally shot me down for believing that miracles could happen. Look, I’ve actually seen them happen throughout all the years we’ve been having trouble with finances, and I don’t see why I deserve to get chopped up for having high hopes and believing that it could and will happen again.
little chef
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. And the money was a nice gift seeing as I don’t get cash that often and there are a few things that I’ve wanted for a long time to get for myself.
). I was also able to get two neon colored extensions for it (Blue and Purple, of course) and some head bands like the ones Violet wears. Plus, they were having a sale, so I got the stuff cheap.
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… I’ve been nominated for the Pixar Planet Awards 
, I’ve been kept up til about midnight every night for weeks, and I think I’m coming down with something 
Bet you’re glad to finally be settled in your new home, though.