Normally, I don’t like to double post, but I have a rant that I must post.
Usually, after a big (verbal) fight with my dad, I wouldn’t feel anything because I don’t give a crap about him caring about me or not - I’m used to it already - but today, I absolutely hated my family. My father kept giving me these threats about canceling my Internet subscription, shouted at me like a mad dog and even close to hitting me just because I made a change of plans about helping him with something. What a freak. I wish he’d just die in fire, penetrated by daggers and knives. Just, die.
My mum isn’t the bit caring, either. She doesn’t know how to say caring stuff. She might be caring in the background, but in front of me, she couldn’t act as a kind mother who could make me feel comfortable, secure and good about myself.
Edit: I take that back; she’s a freak, too. A psycho b**** who’s so paranoid about everybody around her calling her names and s***. She should not only die in a fire, but in the burning h*** itself, too, for being such an anti-Christ (she claims to be Christian, but her actions say otherwise).
Today, after this argument, I feel, even more than before, that I’m living in a prison. This room, this apartment means nothing to me. It’s just a cubicle with four walls blocking my freedom, and I can’t escape it because I have no real friends in my country whose houses I could stay over for a night or two without having the request rejected by their parents. I know the people in the forums are caring and stuff, but, honestly, I really still feel ever so lonely.
I hate this. My dad just keeps shouting his insults about me so loud, making it very audible for me. Some parents. AND PEOPLE WONDER WHY I’M SUCH AN INSECURE FREAK WITH A DEMENTED MIND! Oh, screw the people! I can’t take this anymore! I feel like just dying and end it all! Screw everybody! I hate this.
If anyone wants to kill my parents, their names are:
Please do it quick; I’m getting impatient.
~ Flare, eternally miserable
Edited by Rachel - don’t give away others’ personal details