Oh, okay. I thought you were talking to me. 
My bad.
Trust me when I say this though.
Even being distracted up and down the yin-yang won’t help much.
I was distracted.
Music to write, books to write, 3D characters and environments to model, school, so on.
I had a pretty good set up.
Until she showed up.
Then I was sent into a tailspin and am going through it right now.
And here’s a lovely thing about marriage: if done right, it’d be like living with a friend. Or even more.
You like hanging out with friends I’m sure?
Well just remember that marriage can’t be that limiting.
The difficulty is it’s a team effort. Requires both spouses to cooperate.
If they can cooperate, the freedom you both have is astounding.
I mean, the biggest freedom of being single is being able to date people. Paradox! I understand that some people don’t want to be married. That makes sense. But I don’t understand the “freedom” concept.
Thanks for the insight SS 30. I know marriage isn’t always a bad thing, but I don’t know … I’m just sick and tired of being interested in guys and finding out they’re not interested in me. And the ones that seek me out, there’s just absolutely no chemistry there yet they seem to want to FORCE the relationship to work, just so they won’t be alone anymore, like I have to forget all about myself and give in just to make them feel happy.
I feel like such a picky person because I didn’t stay with anyone more than a couple of months. I feel like my chances are running out. I’m only 21 going on 22 next month, so I’m still young and I know there’s still time left, but when I look around and see all my friends are dating or thinking of getting married or some that are even married already … I feel like I’m being left behind. I mean, there’s a lot less stress and drama, being single, but I’m still not entirely sure that this is the life I want for myself.
It’ll happen when it happens.
I still have more to go. I just know it.
And because of this im scared.
I’m afraid of what I’ll do that might hurt the girl to be or even myself.
But I know what boundaries there are. And I’m trying to stay within them.
I have had a real girlfriend since 2009. But there have been girls that I have thought something could happen.
There was this one girl that I thought was perfect. She loved Disney and Pixar, she was also a race fan. When I met her she had a bf (who I was friends with), so we were just friends. Then they broke up and we would talk all the time. I went to Disney world later that year (this is 2010 btw) and I got her a shirt and a nice dumbo toy. We even were going to go to a NASCAR race together. The thing was she was a bit flaky and wouldn’t make up her mind on whether she wanted a realtionship or not. Eventually I gave up.
Then there was this girl who I went to HS went but did meet until I started my job last december. She was beautiful. She was also a religous fanatic. I mean I am a christian who loves God, I pray everyday and try to live my life the way God wants me too but she was like Amanda Bynes in Easy A. She tried to make herself out like she was perfect. We went out on a cupole dates at the rec. Then I tried to ask her out to see movies and she would flake on me. Then I decided she wasn’t worth it.
All in all I guess I thought I was in love with both these girls at one point but realized I wasn’t, I was in love with the thought of being with them.
I’m a born again Christian myself.
I personally believe that salvation comes through faith in Christ alone.
I’d want to meet someone who believes the same thing.
At the same time I’d want her to be beautiful.
I’d want God to make her so beautiful to the point that I can’t keep my eyes on her.
But at the same time I know what’s right and what’s wrong.
So I’d try to make sure I stay within those boundaries that way I don’t mess it up for her or myself.
At the current moment I do not feel ready for dating.
But one day I will be. One day soon.
It makes me feel good to see so many other Jesus fans here. I mean, I live in the South, so obviously I know plenty. But it’s good to know that I’m not totally nuts.
I know exactly this feeling. I mean, I though I was in love with this guy, but I think I loved the thought of being with someone who liked me back, and not necessarily the person themself. And then this year, a guy liked me but it just wasn’t working. I feel like it was the same way with him, but about me. I think he liked the idea of being with someone, but not me personally. I don’t think he realized it, but I saw it kinda. We never really talked, only texted, and I had only ever met him once. Besides, I didn’t like him. I mean, I liked him as a friend, but not like “like liked” him. 
It just wasn’t good.
As much as people think we as Christians are nuts
^Even when I was alone, I still had a friend. Even before I found the forum.
That’s such a sweet thing to say Virginia. I’m gonna add to the Christian lovefest I’m born and raised a Roman Catholic!
Ooh, I love Catholics! Well, actually, that probably sounded odd. But rather, I find their beliefs and rituals interesting.
Baptist denomination here
My posts keep getting stolen 
^I hate when that happens!
I love Catholics too! What kinda Christian are you Virginia? I’ve always wondered
I am Baptist.
Yep.
I’m Baptist, too! And BTW, contrary to popular belief, we can read! And we’re not all racists.
Well, this is becoming the official religion thread!
Sorry, my bad! Well, we had a thread for that, but it got locked up. 